Susie Khalil is the person behind Susie’s Big Adventure. She is a dear friend of mine who makes her home in Jeddah with her Saudi husband. She has suffered the recent loss of her mother who resided in the United States. I can understand and relate too well to the grief which Susie is feeling; not only over the loss of her mother but being so far away as her mother passed on. I lost my mother shortly after 9/11. She was in the United States and I was in New Delhi, India. Due to the totally disruptive air transport system, I was unable to get a flight back to the United States for her service and tribute.
I am sharing the tribute which Susie has written about her mother. Even as I type this message the tears run down my own cheeks as I see the spirit, strength, compassion, love and determination which Susie’s mother had for her children. It’s no surprise that Susie is equally an exceptional woman.
After reading Susie’s tribute below, I’m sure she would appreciate words of comfort from readers at her blog.
Text from Susie:
To my dear friends and family –
Some of you have already heard about my mom Trudy’s passing on from this world a couple of days ago at the age of 87. But many of you don’t know what an extraordinary woman she was.
A friend just asked me what my mom’s secret was – how exactly did she do it? Raising five kids all by herself, and all of us were motivated, with ambitions, and grew into successful productive adults. My friend wanted to know what she could do to instill these ethics and motivations in her own children.
The truth is, I really don’t know how my mom did it. I think back to the those times, of the difficulties and challenges she was faced with, widowed in 1963 at age 38 and left to raise five kids all by herself, ranging in age from thirteen down to ten months. We had moved from NYC to the small border town of Douglas, Arizona, when I was just four – and seven short years later, we lost my dad. Even though both Mom’s and Dad’s families were back in New York and they begged her to move us all back there, she decided to stay in Arizona, feeling that it was a better place to raise her children. I can’t imagine how different our lives may have been had she moved us back to NYC.
I cannot say enough good things about Douglas, AZ. It was like we had this huge extended family around us. The town couldn’t have been bigger than 15,000 people. I am so grateful that I grew up there. Even though it was culturally lacking in the types of events and activities that big cities have to offer, there was always plenty to do. Every summer, the Johnson kids went swimming, took tennis lessons, played on ball teams, and rode our bikes everywhere. We always had friends over to the house, and my brothers and I were in all the school plays and musicals and starred in those hilariously comical plays written by the fabulous Wynne Strom down at the church – the Johnson kids were such big hams that she actually wrote specific parts for us.
My mom encouraged us to pursue our interests and she was a great believer in having a back-up plan. Like my brother Barry wanted a career in music, so she insisted that he get his teaching degree so he could also teach voice, just in case. And Barry now does both – teaches and has a singing career. My brothers and I all had such diverse interests and we all went into such different careers and all chose such different paths in life.
Mom supported us in whatever we wanted to do, never missing an event where one of us was performing, or graduating, or playing. She was even honored with a big trophy by the Little League Baseball team that all my brothers played on – she never missed a single ballgame in about 20 consecutive years, not even the week she gave birth to my baby brother. Of course, I felt that she should have shared that trophy with me, because I too went to all of those ballgames to cheer on my brothers or to man the concession stand.
She was involved in everything – PTA, several women’s groups, church, Community Concerts, local politics, the Blood Bank – I can’t even begin to name all the organizations she was a part of. She was always busy making costumes for this play or that, or hosting a meeting for one of her organizations. She was even named Lady of the Year in Douglas one year, and ran for mayor a few years later. But she narrowly lost. Probably a good thing. I remember her picketing outside the local movie theater when they were going to raise the price of admission. And I remember that my brothers had a paper route, and she got up with them every morning at oh-dark-thirty, helped them fold the papers and bag them, and then drove them around the route as they threw the papers while hanging off the open back door of the station wagon. I know because I went many mornings myself with them. We were a family and we did things together. And my mom was a great role model for us all, teaching us to never give up, to finish whatever we started, and to go after our dreams.
My mom tried her best to treat each one of us equally so we didn’t feel that she loved one of us more than the others, while at the same time making each of us feel special. At Christmas she made sure that each one of us kids had the same number of gifts to open. At Easter, she carefully counted out every jelly bean or chocolate egg so we all had the exact same number of candies in our baskets. At Thanksgiving, our house was the place to be, overrun with adults and kids alike, with mostly the families of teachers in Douglas – the Huddlestons, the Rehureks, the Pierces, and the Levras. Since we all had no other family in town, they became our family.
Our house was always filled with laughter and jokes, and many times Mom was the butt of those jokes. There were funny things that happened that she was never able to shake off – like the day we came home from school and saw her leg dangling down from a big hole in the living room ceiling and heard her yelling “Help me!” She had been putting away Christmas decorations and lost her footing. Luckily she didn’t fall all the way through, but she couldn’t wrangle her way out of there until we got home from school. I don’t remember how long she had to dangle there like that, but we all sure got a lot of mileage out of that incident. Another funny memory of Mom is the video we took of her on a family vacation to Disneyland. All of us kids were filmed enjoying the rides, eating, and laughing, but throughout the whole video, each time we filmed Mom, she was coming out of a different restroom. It was those darn water pills she had to take half of her life!
Being in the travel business for many years, I feel fortunate that I was able to take Mom on some nice trips to Hawaii and Europe. But I never heard the end of it when I took my mom to Australia and she couldn’t find her passport when we got to the airport to return home. I had to leave her in Australia to find her passport, and I came back all by myself. Luckily she found it and came back the next day, but boy, did I ever get ribbed for abandoning my mom in Australia. And then there was the time when my daughter Shaune and I were both quite pregnant, and we brought Mom to my home when she had just been released from the hospital after having had back surgery. Somehow she fell to the ground as she was entering my house, and Shaune and I couldn’t lift her up. So she had to crawl all the way to the bedroom, and then Shaune and I pushed her up from behind onto the bed while we were all hysterically laughing. Ah, good times…
At the end, her dementia had gotten worse and getting her meds at the right dosages was a real challenge. The side effects of the meds gave her terrible diarrhea and extreme tiredness. She always asked me when I was coming back, but the last two times we spoke, she didn’t ask. She sounded like she had given up and was just ready to move on to the next life. She was admitted to the hospital with severe dehydration on Friday, July 6, 2012, went into kidney failure and was in a semi-comatose state. By the next day she seemed to be improving, producing urine which indicated that there wasn’t any permanent kidney damage.
My brothers Roy and Barry live in the area, and they and their wives took shifts being with Mom. They played the music she loved from her favorite musicals – The King and I, Sound of Music, and Oklahoma. She had her eyes closed and she couldn’t talk or sing, but she mouthed the words and moved her arms to the beat. I can just see her doing that. Mom passed on very peacefully in the wee hours of Sunday morning, July 8th. I am thankful that she went fast and didn’t suffer and that Roy was with her at the time, to usher her gently into the next life where my Dad has been waiting almost 50 years for her. I’m sad that I couldn’t be there with her at the end. It’s hard living so far away – every time I would leave her these past few years to go back to Saudi Arabia, I always thought, is this going to be the last time I ever see her? And this time, it was.
She was a very strong woman and had more common sense than anyone I’ve ever known. I will miss her pretty blue eyes (although she insisted they were green) and her sense of humor, which she had to have raising her five prankster children. Our mom never remarried and took great delight in all of her children’s accomplishments – Roy, the oldest, now a retired airline pilot; Me, her only daughter and the cause for all her gray hair; Doug, a retired mining engineer and once mayor of his town; Gary, an author and a statistician with the NCAA; and Barry, the youngest, who is an opera singer and teaches voice. She also leaves behind 11 grandchildren and 4 great grandchildren. My mom always wanted a big family – she was a lonely, only child and longed to have a houseful of kids, which she got. Sometimes later in her life, when she was feeling rather useless as she aged, we needed to remind her what a wonderful job she did in raising us. Heck, not one of us has ever been in jail, and not one of us even smokes cigarettes! How did she do that?
We have chosen to have a “Celebration of Our Mom Trudy’s Life” instead of a traditional funeral, and I think she would approve. This memorial service will be held on Friday, August 10th at 2pm at St. Luke’s Episcopal Church in Tacoma, Washington. I am making plans to go the US in the next 2-3 weeks so I can be there with my family and my mom’s friends to say goodbye to our amazing and extraordinary Trudy. All of my brothers and their wives and families will also be there, along with my own two kids and my granddaughter Kayla. My husband Adnan won’t be able to come because it will be the middle of Ramadan, and it’s quite difficult to travel such a distance when one is fasting. But I know he will be there with us all in spirit.
If there is any way that you can join us to celebrate our mother’s life, we would love that. If you are in one of those hot places like Arizona, or Florida, or Texas, Tacoma is quite heavenly in August, and it would be a great respite for you from the heat of summer. And “heavenly” is a good way to describe the send off we will be giving our wonderful Mom.
Thank you all for your friendship, concern, and love that you have shown for my family and our very special Mom.
With love and peace –
Susie of Arabia
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